Why I stopped caring
WHY I STOPPED CARING
Now, I don't mean why I stopped caring about things that matter like my health, university and my mental wellbeing, don't get me wrong I have before stopped caring about those things, but this is not one of those posts.
I want to talk about why I stopped caring about the things that don't matter in the grand scheme of things.
If you don't know me I am probably one of those people who is at times quite embarrassing to be around in public. I acknowledge this fact, and do you know what, I'm not embarrassed about it. Sometimes I make inappropriate noises by accident, laugh too loud, wear strange things or just generally act like a total weirdo. I used to care a lot about what people thought it me, it was bloody exhausting and damn right crippling, and it meant that I was never myself. I think you have to go through these stages in your life to realise and understand the refreshing feeling of not giving a damn. Something I laugh to myself when I see people staring and sniggering at my outfit, it's funny seeing people caring way too much about other people than their own lives.
I think my attitude towards not caring what people think has led me to where I am right now, the most free I have ever felt in my entire life. I don't change myself for people, I don't hold back my personality and don't dwell on other people's opinions as much.
When I first started this blog about three years ago now (since starting it I have had a complete change and deleted all of my old posts) when doing posts about what I was wearing I used to feel so embarrassed about posing in front of the camera and this was just me in my back garden. Now I shoot my outfits in public with people watching and not giving a damn, because do you know what, I really love fashion, and yes there's a reason I'm taking a photograph of this outfit, it's because I like it and want to share it with others!
Don't get me wrong on off days I still get nervous about posing in front of a cute door in the middle of a busy street and I know I cannot model for shit and need to stop with the gormless faces but I'm not going to let that stop me from doing what I enjoy.
I would really love to start doing some more posts about, confidence issues, mental health etc. as I think it is so important to talk about, even if no one ever reads it, I find it therapeutic to let out my thoughts and experiences - so stay tuned for more posts like this!